Current mood:	worried
Current music:	My Immortal - Evanescence

One disappointment after another...
Things are kinda going wrong one after another. I'm not sure what exactly is going on here, but people just seem to want to mess up all of my plans. What the hell is up with that anyway? I'm wondering what all I'll have to do to set things right again. Greg and I are fighting all the time now it seems like. I guess it's just all the stress we're both having to deal with. We both work long hours, our jobs are hectic, and I'm trying desperately to get a new car (Kia turned me down..._again_...those assholes), and it just seems like getting married isn't on his list of priorities. I'm just wondering what all is going to happen in the next few months. I'm wondering if we're even going to get married on schedule. He wonders what the rush is and honestly I'm not sure what to tell him. I just know I want to get married and he's the one I want to marry. I don't know why I'm pushing so hard for this so quickly. Maybe I'm just afraid that something'll happen and this won't work out. He says he doesn't want to get a divorce so he says I'd better be sure of us before I continue planning for the wedding. I'm sure...I just don't think he is sometimes. He says he loves me, but sometimes it's hard to tell. I'm out of ideas of what to do next. Travis tried to help me and I appreciate him trying, but I'm still scared. I'm scared of being alone again. I doubt I could handle it.