Current mood:	calm
Current music:	'Hanging By A Moment' - Lifehouse

All stories and fantasy worlds aside...
Well, I know it's been a while since I've updated my journal, but as I'm sure anyone could relate to, it's been a hectic month. My job sucked basically but thank God I quit on Monday. I just got so tired of my asshole boss and dealing with all the immature little punks I had to work with on a daily basis.

Anyway, in other news I once again find myself dealing with unrequited love not to mention the green little devil that goes along with it called 'Jealousy'. I'm not too jealous actually because I have sense enough admit that if I'm not the one to make him happy then at least someone else should.

The story goes as such...girl loves guy...guy loves another girl...girl settles for just friends (because really, who wouldn't take what they can get in this case?).

Honestly, if I could change how I feel, I would. We all know emotions aren't that easy to control as it's been proven since the beginning. I didn't ask to love this guy, nor did I choose to, but it happened and there's not much I can do about it.

I won't go as far as saying that loving him is bad, because it's definitely not. I just don't see the point in it considering he's perfectly happy with someone else. Granted, I wish that someone could be me (and this is where the jealousy comes in) but I'm not such a bitch that I'd try to ruin it for him. If he's happy with her, I have no right to interfere.

As is everything else in regards to love, it's complicated. I've talked with him over and over on this subject and this is pretty much my way of getting closure. Whoever this girl is, I hope she realizes what she's got and that she won't take him for granted. He deserves only the best whether he believes it or not.

If I can only be his friend then I'll be the best friend I possibly can be. I definitely won't take that for granted.

Even though I don't really know why I'm writing this I guess it'll help me sort out all the confusing thoughts in my head. And besides, I can't really talk about this to anyone else anyway.

For now, I'm gonna stop here because I've got things to do around the house thanks to my lazy parents. I love them to death, but they infuriate me beyond all sane reasoning sometimes...